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death is always there
Written by natalie   
Wednesday, 02 December 2009

Facebook is seldom subtle. There was no gentle warning, but this morning, I read enough status updates to know that my mom's dear friend Kim had passed away.

And death never comes quietly enough. Not in car accidents or when it comes in the night. The ripples and repercussions astound us with their depth - their noise. Every life is oh so precious. And every life, when ended, leaves holes in the fabric of our humanity.

The very thing that makes us human - our mortality paired with soul - is the very thing that makes us broken.

Today I am thankful for my mother's health. That her battle, seven years ago, has staved off the cancer. That she hasn't seen reoccurance or worry. That her mind is sharp, her body able. She lifts her grandchildren and stays up, as late as us sometimes, to watch them sleep. I am grateful for these days and these moments. Because we have them. Because we might not have.

And I'm reminded of the words of the late Arthur Quinn. "Death is always there before us, as an ineveitable coming attraction." And then short weeks later, he died.

And last night, as we sat with our friends as they retold the story of a stroke. "You don't expect your partner to have a stroke at 25." And yet they got through it. "Only my mom can really tell a difference now," he says a year later. But they admit it still haunts them. Still freaks them out. "What if I woke up one morning and he was just next to me... but gone." 

I have these same fears. I have these same worries. I have lived through many deaths and assume I'll live through more before my demise. But I do not know, any more than you do, how long we each have. So we'll share what we can now. And we'll thank God for the moments.

We're human because we care.

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World AIDS Day
Written by natalie   
Tuesday, 01 December 2009

How has AIDS touched you?

And if you think it hasn't - you're wrong.

AIDS has touched me. I have two nephews that I wouldn't have except for the AIDS orphan epidemic in Africa. I have lost friends. And I daily live with the understanding that both an ocean away and in my neighbrohood there are people living with and dying from AIDS.

And yet we live in a day where the tide is changing. Where there is some hope. Where medicine is extending the lives of those who have HIV and where the world has risen to the challenge of saving these oh so worthwhile lives.

And I long for the day when AIDS isn't even a hiccup - not a problem - not a death sentence. Where there is no social stigma for those affected. Where drugs and poverty and rape don't have a chance to spread this sickness. I long for this day while I live in hope.

Tonight, think of those who you've lost or how you've been affected. Tomorrow, think of ways you can help build hope.

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style. or lack thereof.
Written by natalie   
Sunday, 29 November 2009

Because I was homeschooled and not even allowed to touch makeup until my Jr. year of highschool, I struggle with "my look." Or maybe I'm just style-retarded. And I blame my homeschooling for it...

Maybe its because I was still doing college girl sweats and tanks to school when I got pregnant with my first son. Because sweats and tanks are hot when you've been up late partying. And the boys like that look when they've been out partying with you. But when your sweats and tanks are covered in baby vomit and you actually haven't showered in five days, or when they're from Walmart and not VS's.... the look is less flattering.

But I digress.

I'm in a style quandry. I've been working out a lot and am starting to finally feel like I might someday fit in clothes that I actually like. I'm holding off on buying anything for at least one more pants size. But at that point, what do I buy?

I love the quirky style of fellow-former-homeschooler Promise Tangeman. But I have kids. And I'm not 5 ft tall. And I don't have her hair, though I wish I did. So I don't think I could pull it off. Plus all of our thrift stores are full of old Levi's and cowboy boots with fresh poop still on 'em. I can't find anything so cute and vintage here.

I love the laid back t-shirts and jeans thing. But sometimes I have to go to meetings and I don't know if that will fly? Are t-shirts grown up?

And I love the jackets with slacks and heels thing too. There's a part of me that wants to look professional. But that's not really me either.

I have a pants size to go. Then, when its time to buy a new wardrobe, I might be hiring a stylist. I need some major help, yo. And probably not just cause I was homeschooled.

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the message of the cross
Written by natalie   
Tuesday, 24 November 2009

For three years I poured myself into building a church. My primary work had to do with branding/marketing the church and making it appealing to the audience ie the community. It worked. The church has grown, hugely. And it is a good church. And people are being changed.

But, as I have stepped away from that church, I find myself feeling deeply the words of JR Kerr .

"I say let's trash our brands and get to littering the landscape of our country with the message of the cross. Perhaps they should not go back up on our buildings, but they certainly belong on the landscape of our lives."

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